The Hard Way

Last night as I was net surfing on my laptop, I suddenly received a text from one of my friends, asking if I had time. Minutes later, I was informed that my friend is suffering from brain tumor leading to cancer, and I stared at the screen for a good ten minutes, fighting back the tears and emotions I had no idea I withheld. This morning as I was reading a text about brain tumors in one of my classes, I felt so helpless and frustrated that I could see the words, yet comprehend none. The mere thought of having someone I know suffer from the same condition the author was trying so hard to transfer was enough to torture me.

I've been mostly writing fuy stuff on my blog up until now, and honestly I had no idea that one day I would be facing such a situation, but I do know one thing and that is we sure don't value the people around us until we are struck by some sort of lightning; that is the bitterness of human nature and another thing that we should be sorry for not being able to change. I believe that my friend will be fine eventually, yet I have not been able to stop overthinking since last night (salut, superego) and the fact that I am in no position to help or reduce the pain even for a moment has been eating away at my soul.

I have prayed to every God and holy being up there or among us to help my friend and cure this little coagulation of pain and sufferig called tumor; since even for the people not believing in him, God is still the very last source of comfort in case of extreme devestation. I hope that none of my readers would ever have to go through the torture of being unwell or seeing someone they care about go through it instead, yet I have learned it the hard way that as long as we are not exposed to pain, we caot appreciate the people around us the way we should.

Hats off to all of the brave people fighting the beasts called cancer and tumor; my heart is with you.